im cold..

well its been 4 days now since i have a cold , well its the coldest month, maybe thats the reason why i caught it,

in doubt....

have you ever felt.. that your just a person lost in the sea of everything... you doubt your skill, your capabilities.. your self??? that you despise your self on why the heck you have ended in such a sorry state...

..................... well im about to!!!

to be back on track.....

well.. its has been quite sometime since i posted here, well glad to have time, this past few months i have been very busy.... apprenticeship program, review, write-ups, church. never had time for myself.. well maybe thats why i have this problem, i dont know if theres something wrong with my body clock, my eyes, or my body..... well in having sleeping disorder, i cant seem to have my focus on my work or while reading, i always drowz when i gaze to much on a document or when i read, i dont know if thats natural.. just imagine i wont notice that im sleeping its like reading then a few seconds 2 or 5 im asleep!!! hope i can find a cure specially im taking the boards..

LETS GO TAMS

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS (FEU) of the recently concluded UAAP championships,,hahahah it was a close fight with the DLSU, but still we WOOOOONNNNNN hehehe, i think it was a good karma in some sort of way, it was a best of three series and we won 2-0, what a sweet sweet sweep it maid it sweeter when you can see the disappointed face of our foe's ; p ,, hehehe its not like i love to grudge or ridicule "them" but they are such cheap players, dirty... you can even count in their assistant manager for hitting our top cager Arwind in the nape, other facts are, they were such thrash talkers, it was even on the headline "front page" of the Philippine star september 29th issue,and dont forget their... well... i dont know... hmmmmm... how could i say this "their old gen fans" who were a bit unruly and not acting their age... their calling in names.. they mock the referee for calls they didnt like, but the most unruly part is they dirty finger the players, words are thrown at them like bricks filled with mud, and the thing is they feel heroic in doing such, you can see them giving high fives after an inappropriate act.huh?? maybe it was the love for the game .. i dont know ; p their the ones that should set as examples what real sportsmanship is, to show the younger gen's how sports can develop friendships, camaraderie and goodwill. not rivalry and atrocity... . . .. . .. .. ..

GO FIGHT FEU....
GO FIGHT TAMARAWS....

what a headache

we had an impromptu jam, for the FEU business show, our part was to seranade the participants, i was on the beat box, i was supposed to sing but i didnt really know the song pinoy, so i let others do it. I was playing with a band i hardly knew, well at least they were great. what was unique was we are an acoustic band but we have a cielo as a fill in , it was cute because our genre was alternative pop rock and their was a a cielo, and we blended so well . the problem was the serenading part since it was an impromptu we didnt actually knew how long we would play we thought it was just for 5 min or so, the problems was there were at least 20 participant , men was it long. My hand was already hurting of all the beating at the kahonto make problems worst i was infront of the fog machine, i did not knew that it would smell that bad and make my head hurt, it was like i was being nebulized made out of grounded chalk. ... well at least it was a good show

WE LOST

It was quite a grueling competition,it was the last week of the “Global Battle of the Bands” there were lots of great playing band some were “ETERNAL NOW” a local progressive rock band who had already a name and MOONJOE (actually they won) an acid Jazz Band a collection of radioactive sago and P.O.T. I had a rough time going to ratsky malate because I don’t know the place. Then I ought to ride a taxi just to go at the venue. The problem was the driver was a good for nothing dumb looking rip off artist, imagine we were traveling at 20 kph at an OPEN ROAD!!! To make matters worst we took a right turn at the round table going to Roxas blvd. I was so pissed of, the good thing was I was able to ask direction and jumped off at Robinsons place, my bill was P62, I gave 500, then he gave P420 saying he hadn’t enough change (huh???) how greedy can a guy get. I a got his plate pcg 561, if by chance you’ll have the same fate, pls do me favor beat the hell out of that guy

WE WON

all our hard work paid off.,, i never could have imagined that we could win the 2nd FEU Strategic planning, total quality management, it was quite an experience, we had a rough start, then an idea came and another, and another and was folllowed by many more, till we finished the paper. we encountered a lot, as a group ther were arguments, conflicting ideas, and there was even an issue brought up that i had a conflict with one of my teammate. but i guess it was all for the best, we had this sense of check and balance.

on the eliminations, we were bothered by the panel's one question, but when the results came we were a bit shocked, we had a perfect score of 100 out of the 1st cluster....

then the finals came, i was already a bit troubled because i had another competition to attend to the "Global Battle of the Bands" the call time was 5pm, it was already 6 when we had our defense. i already changed clothes but was instructed to wear our defense suit. the awarding cermony was a bit long there were other categories on strategic planning. i was so eager to go because my band was already texting and calling me to go because they cant sound check without me. i was having mixed emotions already both of excitement and anxiouness. then our category came "Total Quality Management" 3rd was AC01503 michell's group Phil 7/11, 2nd was AC01501 Decor Matet's group, Then us "Burger Machine"
we had some picture taking and a closing prayer with our prof sir Espino. Then hurriedly changed my outfit, got my keyboard at gate 1, forgot to say goodbye to the group and rode off in a taxi with a smile in my face ......



"WE WON"

a play

There is so many things id like to say … questions I want to ask but no matter how much I think and ask questions it can’t suffice my thirst for your love…. I know are situation is on a rough road... But id like to challenge this. Dodge every bullet; block every charging situation that would threaten our relationship, but hehe there is always a but as much as possible I don’t want to give you any burden that would make you feel un ease, id like to carry you to never land where we could share so many things where time would stop and we are not to old. Play in the rain, run on the cliffs and sleep in the shade of a tree. To laugh at each others foolishness until we cry out of laughter then look at each others eyes and appreciate our smile. To hold your hand during sunset, embrace you in the coldness of the dark and whisper in your ear when you need confidence and security.

Troubles come and go but id like to solve it with you by my side. “For there is a greater thing than the power of the mind, the courage of the heart” I could chant every love song re-phrase every sonnet and recite every poem do everything by the book, but its worthless I don’t want to say constructed words like chess pieces trying to outplay my opponent. I believe what has happened is spontaneous I’ve never thought that …..that we could be like this, how funny the twist of life… we are so busy foreseeing the future that we are blinded, ignoring what we have and what is around

This I got to say. Every moment we shared is always as good as the first it happened, sweet and wonderful. It leaves a warm feeling and makes me smile after a tiring day I even sometimes hate the time, why does it have to pass why cant it just stop once in a while it would do us both a favor ,me to be you and him to relax because he’s always working 24/7.

So what do you believe me? Don’t I look stupid writing a letter on a plain coupon bond with no margin at all and a font size of 12? How generic don’t you think how eccentric??? But what I have saId is alL true nO matter what others perceiveVE . all I care is YOU .